Tuesday, June 3, 2014

Someone Who Can

Somebody will always understand
Somebody will always care
You didn't really play your part well
I'll find someone who can
Somebody is gonna love me
And I'm gonna love them back
You didn't really play your part well
I'll find someone who can - Yuna

Hahaha. I've been listening to this song right at the moment and feel like dedicating this to someone. Lol childish me. Guys will always be guys. Although I know the fact that I will still be hurt every time I involved with their lives, I'm losing my cool.

I guess time has turned me into a kind of bitch. I'm bitchy-ing my own self lol boleh gitu? I told my sister about this and she said, she had experienced this before. It's okay. Sooner or later, I will overcome this. Do whatever your heart feels like doing, test your limit but remember not to over limit, she said.

Yes I'm gonna test my limit. See how bitchy can I become.
*Laugh.Out.Loud*

Tuesday, May 6, 2014

I Won't Give Up

'Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it
No, I won't give up - Jason Mraz

--5th May 2014--


Dear self, happy 21st birthday.
May Allah bless your every steps.
May your every journey be filled with laughter.
Be thankful to your mom for bringing you into this world.
Be grateful to every single person who enter your life these past 20 years.
You are who you are but they contributed to the 'you' today.
You might be loved, you might as well be hated.
So chin up and embrace yourself.
Because no matter what,
I will always love you.


Yours truly.
You.

Saturday, April 19, 2014

Story of My Life.

Written on these walls are the colors that I can't change
Leave my heart open but it stays right here in its cage
I know that in the morning now I see us in the light upon a hill
Although I am broken, my heart is untamed, still
- One  Direction

Assalamualaikum semuaaa :)
[warning] semua gambar tak dieedit untuk mengekalkan keaslian. Ceh. Maaf awal-awal muka capuk-capuk sunburn semua tu ye. Heh
Ringo's Foyer Guesthouse, Melaka (review).

So harini aku just nak buat simple brief entry pasal guesthouse  yang aku duduk mase pergi melaka haritu. First, macam biase, aku riki banyak-banyak guesthouse kat Agoda dulu based on rate per room per night, kedudukan and reviews. Review ni penting tau. 

So dalam banyak-banyak yang aku senaraikan tu, Ringo's Foyer ni adalah antara yang paling disukai backpackers and dekat dengan jonker walk selain rate dia yang murah. Tapi sedih, kitorang ada masalah dari segi nak book kat agoda, so aku pun pergi kat facebook Ringo's Foyer guesthouse tu sendiri. Aku inbox dia and a week after, Mr Howard (owner Ringo) replied and we made a deal yayyyy. Dia bagi kitorang satu bilik air-cond yang ade dua katil double-decker dengan harga rm20 satu kepala satu malam. Tanpa deposit. Cool.

Dari luar memang nampak cikai.
Entrance Door.


28 Mac, pukul 4 kitorang sampai. Weibo yang tolong bukakkan pintu semua. A minute later, there's Mr Howard appeared in front of us with his naked upper body. Aww lol. Bongok. Haha.
Ruang tamu tempat tengok tv minum kopi main gitar
So, aku check-in, terus bayar konon-kononnya RM160 lah kan untuk 4 kepala untuk 2 malam. Guess what? Dia bagi diskaun 10 hengget uolls. Total RM150 + RM20 deposit kunci. Assaaa~!
tangga nak naik rooftop
Masuk bilik, lampu dia romantik gilos. Tak kecik sangat, tak besar sangat. Just nice for 4 people. Siap boleh duduk lantai main gitar. Lengkap dengan selimut, cadar and 2 bantal; 1 bantal besar, 1 bantal buat peluk-peluk.

Bilik air tak cantum dengan bilik. Kena kongsi dengan penginap bilik lain tapi sangat dekat dengan bilik. No worries. I've been there, and  it's safe! Oh lupa nak bagitahu, masa kitorang sampai situ, penginap yang lain SEMUA warga asing. Scotland, Singapore, Taiwan, US, merate-rate. Kitorang berempat je muslim and malaysian. Hiks. Cool kan.

Dannn. Mr Howard tersangatlah peramah orangnya. Lupa jugak nak bagitahu, boleh buat dapur tu macam dapur sendiri. Ada teh, kopi, gula, air mineral, air panas, semua sila layan diri sendiri. Breakfast, sorang 3 keping roti, starts pukul 7-11 am. No additional charges for all of these hokeh.



Ok kat sini ada rooftop jugak. Sebab before datang check-in tu kitorang dah berbasah-basah main air, so mencicit-cicit pergi rooftop sidai baju. Hiks. Fefeeling obersi sangat jemur kain kat rooftop main kenyit-kenyit dengan jiran sebelah. Eh gituuu.

Sebab awal tadi dah mention yang entri ni entri pendek, iollss malas nak bebel panjang. Iolls bagi 4.5/5 bintang. Most suitable for backpackers sejati who love making new friends from all over the world. Serius. Tak tipu. Hiks.

So jemputlah tengok semua gambar yang aku letak kat bawah ni eh. Till then! :)











Aku tahu gambar semua same je. Beza posisi and angle. Bhahahaha! Lantak.

Tuesday, April 1, 2014

Happy

It might seem crazy what I’m about to say
Sunshine she’s here, you can take a break
I’m a hot air balloon that could go to space
With the air, like I don’t care baby by the way - Pharrel William

Assalamualaikum semuaaa ^^ 

Fuhhh! *tiup habuk*

Lama gila lah tak bergosip sini. Heh. Well alhamdulillah all is well. I'm currently at home. It's hols yayhuuuu!! Bangun pagi sarapan ubi rebus cicah sambal tumis ya Allah syurgaaaaa!

Okey over. So hari Jumaat lepas, 28 Mac, instead of going to Tioman, I went to Malacca. Yup, Allah is the best planner. Tak sia-sia. Everything went perfect. And because there are friends of mine along with me, things became much much more meaningful. :')

Banyak nak cerita sangat-sangat. So untuk permulaan, aku cerita surface je dulu okey. Next entri nanti aku cerita lagi detail - tempat tidur, makanan, bajet, etc etc. *bajet ade orang nak bace je. haha*

Day One.

So, kenkonon nak fefeeling backpacker lah. Backpack naik kereta dari UTM ke Melaka. Heh. Celup! Orang lain backpack naik bas, keretapi, jalan kaki, kitorang naik kereta. Haha. Pukul 7.30 am gerak, bawak bekal roti untuk breakfast, isi minyak full tank and vrooooomm to Melaka.


Dalam pukul 9.45 am sampai lah kitorang kat Ayer Keroh Melaka. Dalam panas-panas terik tu terus terjah Wonderland bak angg. Memang rentunglah main air bawah terik kannn.


Dekat tiga jam jugaklah kitorang berendam. Dah lapar macam nak pengsan, baru sedor diri nak keluar dari situ. Kalau tak, boleh sampai Wonderland tu tutup baru kitorang keluar kot. Haha overrr.

Lepastu terus pergi makan. Haa, bab makan nanti aku buat entri khas untuk tempat makan best-best kat Melaka hokeh! :D

Now is the time to check-in! Yayy!! Pukul 4 sampai kat Ringo's Foyer Guesthouse, disambut oleh seorang Scottish guy. Weibo nama dia. He's damn friendly and loved chatting.


Haa ni yang kat gambar ni ruang tamu. Tempat lelepak chill tengok tv minum teh main gitar. Ada satu lagi port best; rooftop! Later lah aku tunjuk okey? Heheh

Sebab memasing dah penat, so kitorang lepak nyanyi-nyanyi je. Lepas mandi, jamak maghrib-isyak, sesiap jenjalan kat Jonker Street Night Market. Weibo bawak kitorang pergi situ lalu shortcut. Ya Allah dekat gila hokeh. FYI, Jonker Walk punye night market ni bukak setiap malam weekend sahaje (Jumaat malam and Sabtu malam). Mase kitorang pergi tu awal lagi, so tak ramai orang sangat. Kalau pergi lambat sikit, kompem sesak nafas nak harung orang ramai.
 
 


Kitorang ni memang peminat tegar busker. Yang kat belakang tu couple foreigner tengah busking. Mungkin nak cari duit poket lebih. Ni dekat tapak Datuk Wira dekat celah-celah night market. Ade lah patung Datuk Wira kat situ tapi gambar semua kat iphone Azreen. Hmm.
 
 
Dah jalan punya jalan, baru perasan yang kitorang belum dinner lagi. Kat area ni banyak makanan cina. Nak makan kat Hard Rock Cafe mahal sangat lah pulak. Sebab kitorang waswas, sanggup jalan pergi area sebelah mahkota parade tu haa.

Lepas dah kenyang, menapak balik ke guesthouse. Tapi tak terus balik pun. Kat area Sungai Melaka tu ade jalan tepi-tepi sungai ade lampu-lampu bagai siap ade lukis-lukis pasal sejarah sepanjang dinding tu haa. Kitorang pun jenjalan kat sepanjang jalan yang ade kat tepi sungai tu haa. Best gilaaaaa! Sebab source gambar agak terhad, nah tengok gambar pinjam dari pakcik gugel.


Dekat pukul 12 jugaklah baru sampai balik kat rumah yang kitorang menginap tu. Sebelum tidur sempat lagi suruh Esyah main gitar. Nyanyi-nyanyi sampai Ain dengan Azreen tidur. Lullaby sangat lol. Haha.
 
 So that's it. The end of  day one.

Till then, stay tuned! Xoxo ^^

Monday, February 17, 2014

For The First Time In Forever

For the first time in forever
I could be noticed by someone

And I know it’s totally crazy
To dream I’d find romance
But for the first time in forever
At least I’ve got a chance - Anna and Elsa

Assalamualaikum semua :)

It's been a cool week. No assignment yet, no tension yet. Yay happy kid is happy!

There's always the first time in anything aite? Kali pertama nampak muka mak abah (I don't remember when and how tho), kali pertama bercakap, kali pertama pergi sekolah, kali pertama solat, kali pertama puasa, kali pertama ada kawan, kali pertama untuk semua. Dan mungkin jugak ada 'kali pertama' yang belum kita rasa.

I wished I could restore all those first time moments.

Well actually, aku takde benda spesifik nak tulis pun malam ni. Usually I only blogged when there's something to express. Tapi malam ni I just feel like blogging anything. So I picked a random song and let's just relate it then. Haha.

Ada satu benda yang first time jadi kat aku baru-baru ni. There's this one night when I accidentally(well not really) met a stranger whom I didn't even know what his name is. We only talked to each other for an hour before I agree to go around with him in his car. It was as if I've been possessed(?). I could not think properly at that time I guess lol. Lepastu yang peliknya tak awkward langsung. Kitorang siap singgah mcd drive thru, beli sundae.

He drove me around for an hour and we had a non-stop talking. Daripada berbual pasal E=mc2 sampailah topik pasal pak guard utm. Dalam keadaan aku tak tahu siapa dia, baik ke jahatnya dia, such a fool and cheap and easy I am! Berani sangat ikut orang yang tak kenal dah kenape kan?

Ok sambung cerita. Lepas sejam ronda-ronda bual-bual dalam kereta, dia pun hantar aku balik bilik. The end.

The next morning, I checked my phone but there's no trace of him contacting me. I waited until the other next day and the day after the next day, none. This mysterious guy left me in misery. I just hoped he would greet me once just to confirmed our friendship at least. It's such a waste to just disappear like this because I could feel the chemistry between us.

So that's it. I woke up on the REAL next morning, found out that it was just a dream. An undefined dream. Hahahahahah!

Terukk betullah mimpi aku tu. Bukan ke at least dalam mimpi kena kasi clear dulu nama orang yang kita mimpi tu ke? Baru lah senang sikit aku nak carik that guy in real life kan? Hahahaha!

Yes it was all a dream. Tidur dalam keadaan tak basuh kaki, jadi peliklah mimpinya pun. first time kot aku boleh recall mimpi dari awal sampai habis CLEARLY. Biasanya, tak pernah sekalipun aku boleh ingat details mimpi walaupun baru 5 saat aku bangun dari mimpi. Mimpi kali ni bagi effect besar sangat till I wonder if it was really a dream.

For the first time in forever, there's someone from my dream that I would want to see in a more clearer image.

Hey Mr Handsome-From-Side-Who-Appeared-In-My-Dream, let's meet again yes?

Till then! *tutup lampu pejam mata terus tidur*

Wednesday, February 12, 2014

Decorate

I'm all black and white inside
Monotonous from left to right
I decorate my house with things you love
Just in case you show up - Yuna

Assalamualaikum semua :)

Masuk harini, dah 4 hari aku balik utm untuk semester baru. Masuk semester ni, ada tiga semester lagi kena hadap. Alhamdulillah, starting point agak okay berbanding sem lepas.

Guess what? Sem lepas aku punya result teruk gila nauzubillah tapi aku sikit pun tak heran sebab sem lepas performance aku memang tahap paling bawah sekali pun. Truthfully, pointer aku tak cecah tiga pun sem lepas. Tapi alhamdulillah, takde subjek yang fail, plus, average pointer aku masih atas tiga. Alhamdulillah. Biasanya, apa yang kita dapat tu setanding dengan usaha kita. Betul kan? Positifnya, aku lagi semangat nak habiskan sem keenam aku ni disebabkan result yang teruk tu. No worries, it is not the end of the world. Not yet.

So, cuti tiga minggu aku haritu agak bermanfaat lah jugak. Aku belajar masak dengan mak, dapat spend time dengan family, bbq, dapat tidur pepuas, makan pepuas, seronok! At least lepasni bolehlah aku show off aku reti masak tomyam kan. Ahahahah gitew! Bongkak teruk.

Then, cuti pun habis and here i am, spending time uselessly. Being homesick at my best. Biasanya awal-awal sem ni pergi berjimba lah kan. Tapi sebab aku mulakan sem baru dalam keadaan yang sengkek, di bilik sajalah kite melonjak bagai. Huwaaaaa T.T

Remember my plan to go backpacking at Tioman? Progress nya sekarang ni, tengah nak kompemkan kawan-kawan. InsyaAllah kalau jadi, 28 Mac ni bermulalah pesta menghitamkan diri. Mihmih. Nervous sebenarnya. Takut member-member tak dapat approval dari parents diorang. Aku biasalah, mak dengan abah takkan boleh cakap tak. Kalau dah name anak perempuan terakhir ni memang kepale besi. Rebellious daughter I am. Ala tapi mak dengan abah tahu, aku boleh hidup kat memane pun macammane sekalipun. Because I'm just as cool as that. Lol!

Oh yes, dah naik sem baru ni, ade saje kawan yang tegur "Syeza sekarang dah makin melaram". Melaram? Lol nya statement! Tang mana yang melaram nya tak tahu. Siap ada yang nyampuk, "biasalah tu. Tengah carik jodoh". Bhahahahhahahahhahah!

Tak. Tolonglah. Not the time yet. Kad pengenalan pun tak tukar lagi, mengundi pun belum boleh, bawak kereta pun masuk longkang, hah tak payah, takde mase.

Sekarang ni, misinya cuma nak spend time dengan diri sendiri, nak kumpul duit pusing satu malaysia sampai pengsan dulu haa lepastu baru proceed misi carik jodoh. Yay lol.

Ok cukup dulu. Esok-esok kite tulis-tulis lagi kat sini.

Till then! :D

I know I have the widest smile on earth. Gambar kiri 2010, kanan 2014. Spot any difference?

Friday, February 7, 2014

Human.

But I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
'Cause I'm only human - Christina Perri

Assalamualaikum semua :)

Harini dengar lagu sesedih sebab tengah sedih. Huwaaaa T.T

Aku rasa ramai yang kenal Hero kot. Aku dah follow kisah hidup dia sejak 3 tahun lepas lagi kat kakimotong.blogspot.com and aku pernah share video pasal Hero kat fesbuk dulu-dulu. November 2013, Hero meninggal sebab sakit leukemia. Tapi baru harini aku tergerak nak bukak balik blog kakimotong tu sebab nak bace pasal kematian Hero. Homagad *nangis peluk lutut* I love u Hero. :'(


 

I cried seeing him died handsomely. I know I'm such a loser when it comes to cats. I just love these creatures so much. *kesat hingus*

Till then. *sambung nangis*

Friday, January 24, 2014

Deeper Conversation

Is your favorite color blue?
Do you always tell the truth?
Do you believe in outer-space?
Now I'm learning you

Is your skin as tanned as mine? Does your hair flow sideways?
Did someone take a portion of your heart?
Now I'm learning you

And if you don't mind
Can you tell me
All your hopes and fears
And everything that you believe in
Would you make a difference in the world
I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation
Only you can make me

I've let my guard down for you
And in time you will too

And if you don't mind
Can you tell me
All your hopes and fears
And everything that you believe in
Would you make a difference in the world
I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation
Only you can make me
[x2]

Deeper conversation with me - Yuna

[ I guessed the song tells it all ] 

Friday, January 10, 2014

Jodoh Pasti Bertemu

Jika aku bukan jalanmu
Ku berhenti mengharapkanmu
Jika aku memang tercipta untukmu
Ku kan memilikimu, jodoh pasti bertemu - Afgan

Assalamualaikum semua :)

Dah masuk mukasurat yang ke 10 dalam 2014 rupanya. So far so good. A bit tense tho. Halsu iesseoh!

Eeee eee jiwangnya lagu. Haha. I loved listening to Afgan's. Suara dia memang masuk dengan jiwa aku. Owlolololoo. Serius lah. Suara cemni yang boleh buat hati perempuan cayaq tuuu. Heh over tau. Dah 2014 pun over.

Honestly, 2014 tak bagi permulaan yang baik pun pada aku. The atmosphere smelled quite bad. I know I shouldn't complain. Sampai satu tahap aku terlupa yang aku manusia yang beruntung. Aku terlupa untuk bersyukur. 

Dalam 10 hari yang terawal ni, sikit lagi aku nak tumbang. Aku lupa aku ada banyak tongkat untuk menyokong. Aku rasa macam aku lah yang punya masalah paling besar dalam dunia. Aku sorang je lah yang Allah nak uji kenkononnya. Iman takat kulit bawang potong 18, dah sibuk nak bermegah-megah dengan ujian Allah. :(

I talked too much with my brain nowadays. Too much until I can hear my brain shouted back at me. It was tiring. I slept too much. I ate too little. I cried for no reason. I grew eyebags. I dropped my weight. I messed my hair. I ruined my bedroom. I wore the same tudung each day for two weeks. I wore crumpled clothes. I only touched my notes about 6 to 7 hours before the exam starts.

Tak tahulah apebenda yang aku besar-besarkan sangat. Astaghfirullah. Malu lah macamni. Malu pada pakcik tua yang susah-payah kumpul duit syiling buat bayar yuran sekolah cucu. Aku yang lagi separuh jalan ni boleh bazir-bazirkan duit rakyat pulak macamni. Dah dapat masuk U lepastu buat kepala sendiri. Bad me. :(

Just yesterday I realized I should come to my senses. Know my place, know where I stand. I should worry for nothing. Because Allah is there and will always be. He knows best. Alhamdulillah ya Allah. Alhamdulillah for everything.

And now I feel good just by having that thoughts. :)

Till then! ^^

Sambil tenung dinding, sambil tunggu jodoh sampai. Big LOL

Wednesday, January 1, 2014

Flying Without Wings

Everybody's looking for that something
One thing that makes it all complete
You'll find it in the strangest places
Places you never knew it could be
- Westlife

Assalamualaikum silent readers *bajet ade je*

Happy New Year semuaaaa! Pow pow poww *baling mercun pop*

 Kalau tulis kat kertas nanti terbuang, kalau tulis kat diary, nanti cicir kat memane macam dulu-dulu, kalau taip kat handphone, nanti terformat. Tulis kat blog, sampai tua pun ada. Permanent. Ececeh.

Tulis apa sebenarnya? Things-to-do list. Yayerssss! Oh kemon lah. Dah 2014 pun still pakai list-to-do bagai? Eh lantaq pi aa. At least niat dan semangat tu hade. Haha. Kalau perasan, last entri aku ada mention aku nak pergi travel. Sooooo inilah diaaaa!

Pulau Tioman.


Nak pi Tioman weeehee. Actually dah plan dari 2013 lagi. Kalau tak, memang bulan 10 haritu dah gi dah. Dah start booking chalet semuaa, tetibe start musim hujan pulak mase tu. Kalau pergi mase tengah hehujan, tak syok aa. Tak banyak aktiviti. So insyaAllah, awal bulan 4 ni nak pergi Tioman FOR REAL. InsyaAllah hopefully dah habis tengkujuh. :)

Penang.


Kat sini memang tempat famous untuk backpacking. Ya Allah hai, tengok gegambor je dah rasa eksaited. No exact time and date yet to go backpacking in Penang. Tapi plan dah ada. Pergi naik train, balik naik bas. Pergi Penang Street Art, makan Nasi Kandar, pergi Batu Ferrigghi jugek opkosh. That's it. Yang ni baru draft asal. Cewah! InsyaAllah pergi dalam awal semester depan macamtu. Kalau tak, mungkin after habis praktikal. Dalam bulan 9 atau 10.

Melaka.


Yang ni belum disscuss dengan sesape lagi. Mungkin pergi sendiri kot. Aku teringin jugak nak rasa perasaan backpacking sorang-sorang. Melaka okay lah kan. The place I quite familiar with. Last time pergi dengan geng KPG, tak banyak tempat pun pergi. Hmm. That's why nak pergi lagi sekali. Melaka serius ada banyak gila tempat best! Kalau dapat explore mesti syok! :D

Sabah/Sarawak.
Aku tak pernah naik plane seumur hidup aku. *nangis peluk lutut* So these two are also in the list. Mesti ada tempat best-best punyalah! Kalau dapat, aku nak merasa jugak naik sampan macam dalam tv tu. Lol. Tapi yang ini mungkin boleh pergi tahun ni, atau mungkin jugak tahun 2015. Depends. Takut-takut busy teruk je 2014 ni kan. Hiksss!

Well that's it. Semoga Allah permudahkan semua. Apa yang aku cari dalam hidup, semoga Allah perjelaskan melalui travelling ni. InsyaAllah :)

Till then! ^^