For The First Time In Forever

For the first time in forever
I could be noticed by someone
And I know it’s totally crazy
To dream I’d find romance
But for the first time in forever
At least I’ve got a chance - Anna and Elsa

Assalamualaikum semua :)

It's been a cool week. No assignment yet, no tension yet. Yay happy kid is happy!

There's always the first time in anything aite? Kali pertama nampak muka mak abah (I don't remember when and how tho), kali pertama bercakap, kali pertama pergi sekolah, kali pertama solat, kali pertama puasa, kali pertama ada kawan, kali pertama untuk semua. Dan mungkin jugak ada 'kali pertama' yang belum kita rasa.

I wished I could restore all those first time moments.

Well actually, aku takde benda spesifik nak tulis pun malam ni. Usually I only blogged when there's something to express. Tapi malam ni I just feel like blogging anything. So I picked a random song and let's just relate it then. Haha.

Ada satu benda yang first time jadi kat aku baru-baru ni. There's this one night when I accidentally(well not really) met a stranger whom I didn't even know what his name is. We only talked to each other for an hour before I agree to go around with him in his car. It was as if I've been possessed(?). I could not think properly at that time I guess lol. Lepastu yang peliknya tak awkward langsung. Kitorang siap singgah mcd drive thru, beli sundae.

He drove me around for an hour and we had a non-stop talking. Daripada berbual pasal E=mc2 sampailah topik pasal pak guard utm. Dalam keadaan aku tak tahu siapa dia, baik ke jahatnya dia, such a fool and cheap and easy I am! Berani sangat ikut orang yang tak kenal dah kenape kan?

Ok sambung cerita. Lepas sejam ronda-ronda bual-bual dalam kereta, dia pun hantar aku balik bilik. The end.

The next morning, I checked my phone but there's no trace of him contacting me. I waited until the other next day and the day after the next day, none. This mysterious guy left me in misery. I just hoped he would greet me once just to confirmed our friendship at least. It's such a waste to just disappear like this because I could feel the chemistry between us.

So that's it. I woke up on the REAL next morning, found out that it was just a dream. An undefined dream. Hahahahahah!

Terukk betullah mimpi aku tu. Bukan ke at least dalam mimpi kena kasi clear dulu nama orang yang kita mimpi tu ke? Baru lah senang sikit aku nak carik that guy in real life kan? Hahahaha!

Yes it was all a dream. Tidur dalam keadaan tak basuh kaki, jadi peliklah mimpinya pun. first time kot aku boleh recall mimpi dari awal sampai habis CLEARLY. Biasanya, tak pernah sekalipun aku boleh ingat details mimpi walaupun baru 5 saat aku bangun dari mimpi. Mimpi kali ni bagi effect besar sangat till I wonder if it was really a dream.

For the first time in forever, there's someone from my dream that I would want to see in a more clearer image.

Hey Mr Handsome-From-Side-Who-Appeared-In-My-Dream, let's meet again yes?

Till then! *tutup lampu pejam mata terus tidur*

Decorate

I'm all black and white inside
Monotonous from left to right
I decorate my house with things you love
Just in case you show up - Yuna

Assalamualaikum semua :)

Masuk harini, dah 4 hari aku balik utm untuk semester baru. Masuk semester ni, ada tiga semester lagi kena hadap. Alhamdulillah, starting point agak okay berbanding sem lepas.

Guess what? Sem lepas aku punya result teruk gila nauzubillah tapi aku sikit pun tak heran sebab sem lepas performance aku memang tahap paling bawah sekali pun. Truthfully, pointer aku tak cecah tiga pun sem lepas. Tapi alhamdulillah, takde subjek yang fail, plus, average pointer aku masih atas tiga. Alhamdulillah. Biasanya, apa yang kita dapat tu setanding dengan usaha kita. Betul kan? Positifnya, aku lagi semangat nak habiskan sem keenam aku ni disebabkan result yang teruk tu. No worries, it is not the end of the world. Not yet.

So, cuti tiga minggu aku haritu agak bermanfaat lah jugak. Aku belajar masak dengan mak, dapat spend time dengan family, bbq, dapat tidur pepuas, makan pepuas, seronok! At least lepasni bolehlah aku show off aku reti masak tomyam kan. Ahahahah gitew! Bongkak teruk.

Then, cuti pun habis and here i am, spending time uselessly. Being homesick at my best. Biasanya awal-awal sem ni pergi berjimba lah kan. Tapi sebab aku mulakan sem baru dalam keadaan yang sengkek, di bilik sajalah kite melonjak bagai. Huwaaaaa T.T

Remember my plan to go backpacking at Tioman? Progress nya sekarang ni, tengah nak kompemkan kawan-kawan. InsyaAllah kalau jadi, 28 Mac ni bermulalah pesta menghitamkan diri. Mihmih. Nervous sebenarnya. Takut member-member tak dapat approval dari parents diorang. Aku biasalah, mak dengan abah takkan boleh cakap tak. Kalau dah name anak perempuan terakhir ni memang kepale besi. Rebellious daughter I am. Ala tapi mak dengan abah tahu, aku boleh hidup kat memane pun macammane sekalipun. Because I'm just as cool as that. Lol!

Oh yes, dah naik sem baru ni, ade saje kawan yang tegur "Syeza sekarang dah makin melaram". Melaram? Lol nya statement! Tang mana yang melaram nya tak tahu. Siap ada yang nyampuk, "biasalah tu. Tengah carik jodoh". Bhahahahhahahahhahah!

Tak. Tolonglah. Not the time yet. Kad pengenalan pun tak tukar lagi, mengundi pun belum boleh, bawak kereta pun masuk longkang, hah tak payah, takde mase.

Sekarang ni, misinya cuma nak spend time dengan diri sendiri, nak kumpul duit pusing satu malaysia sampai pengsan dulu haa lepastu baru proceed misi carik jodoh. Yay lol.

Ok cukup dulu. Esok-esok kite tulis-tulis lagi kat sini.

Till then! :D

I know I have the widest smile on earth. Gambar kiri 2010, kanan 2014. Spot any difference?

Human.

But I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
'Cause I'm only human - Christina Perri

Assalamualaikum semua :)

Harini dengar lagu sesedih sebab tengah sedih. Huwaaaa T.T

Aku rasa ramai yang kenal Hero kot. Aku dah follow kisah hidup dia sejak 3 tahun lepas lagi kat kakimotong.blogspot.com and aku pernah share video pasal Hero kat fesbuk dulu-dulu. November 2013, Hero meninggal sebab sakit leukemia. Tapi baru harini aku tergerak nak bukak balik blog kakimotong tu sebab nak bace pasal kematian Hero. Homagad *nangis peluk lutut* I love u Hero. :'(

 

I cried seeing him died handsomely. I know I'm such a loser when it comes to cats. I just love these creatures so much. *kesat hingus*

Till then. *sambung nangis*